I’ve known her for a few years now,
but not a lifetime
The time of my friendships marked in decades
Is no more, single digits now the rule.
Thinking her different at first
all the necessary camouflage.
I plunged in disregarding the obvious signs
Time the enemy of things concealed,
permits the truth to slowly appear.
That her life, a continual series of crises,
always in search of a savior.
Desires to fill that role, predestined to fail.
The distance grows between us
connection growing fainter as silence settles in its place
Until you disappeared, a shadow consigned to the past.
Now, all these months later
As a specter appearing from the dark
You emerge again, all the feeling and desires
assailing my heart once more.
Yet I’m stronger now,
I resist the almost overpowering urge to offer her salvation,
salvation that is not within my power to give.
I can only offer my presence as comfort in its stead.
hoping that it will prove sufficient.